July 2012
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Fasting starting tonight hopefully for 3 days.
You don’t know how much it hurts me when you say things like that to me. Or maybe you do? You can obviously see the tears running down my face when you make those comments and what do you do???? You ignore it. I want you to kiss me, you never do. But if you do, it’s a little peck, not even a good kiss?
I don’t understand, I just don’t know what to do about this! I feel...
June 2012
9 posts
Rant.
Okay, so a lot of things have been going on in my mind lately.. So much so, that I’m feeling on the verge of panic attacks again. First of all, I hate how I look. But not the normal kind of hate, the kind of hate that makes me burst into tears because I am absolutely disgusted by my own appearance. I dislike every little part of me and I know that there is nothing I can do about it. (Ahem,...
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I spent last night crying again. My mum and I were talking then she asked what was wrong because I “looked sad and depressed”. I assured her I was fine, but within a few seconds of saying that I broke down and began to sob.
I cried because I had not felt more alone in years. I cried because I…
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I’m still depressed; But you don’t know.
I still skip meals; You don’t know.
I continue to hate myself everyday; You don’t care.
I’m still sick; What you say to me doesn’t help.
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Learned that my little sister (five years younger) is 4 pounds heavier than me.
Yesss!!!
May 2012
20 posts
I remember the panic attacks I had whenever I...
Those have gone away. But only because I don’t weigh myself anymore.
Now, I have panic attacks because I feel as if I’m not loved. That everyone around me is pushing me away. I’m unwanted.
I hate myself, and I need to get away from everyone. I need time by myself… But I can’t have that can I?
The other day my mum asked me if I lost weight again because my arms got skinny… My arms???
I want her to be worried when my fucking legs get skinny, or when she can see my hip bones again.
It won’t be long :)
43046) I’ve been better for a good x months. Then...
Was a size 2 in January.. Hello size 4. Fuck you.
Day 2: How tall are you? Do you like your height?
I am 5’3”. Sometimes I like my height.. Like when people comment on the fact that I’m small. But then I don’t like my height sometimes because short people have a more difficult time being skinny because I guess weight is proportioned differently on smaller people. But then again, if I was taller, I don’t think my boyfriend would have asked me out because he’s...
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Day one: Your stats.
Height: 5’3”
Highest Weight: 130 lbs
Current Weight: 122 lbs.. fuck you.
Lowest Weight: 108… Ohhh I was soooo skinny.
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30 Day Thinspo Challenge
01. Your stats. 02. How tall are you? Do you like your height? 03. A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person? 04. Your greatest fears about weight loss. 05. Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you? 06. Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do. 07. Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care? 08. Your...
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I got fat. I failed.
I’m failing in school and I’m failing at being skinny.
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Yes I want to talk to you! No I do not want to break up. Why is it so hard to tell whether you’re joking or not?? You make me insecure when you say shit like that and you don’t even know it. I love you so much that it kills me, it tears me apart to think about me being without you so please understand that I am and will always be faithful and loyal to you. I will love you for the rest...
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I don’t care, I don’t care about what you’re saying I don’t give a fuck. Stop talking to me, don’t ask me about what’s wrong, I’m not gonna fucking tell you. I do not give a shit about you. Shut the fuck up.
Holy fuck.
I cannot believe how much birth control fucked me up. I never used to cry this much and now I cry everyday. My boyfriend thinks that he’s the one making me cry but he’s not the reason!! This fucking birth control made me gain 10 pounds, I used to eat good. But I can eat so much now and never get full.. Fuck. I’m getting new B.C tomorrow and hopefully I can lose that 10 pounds.....
April 2012
23 posts
I’m done with school, I wanna drop out, I’m going to fail anyway. I’m fat as well, should definitely stop fucking eating!!
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I have a head ache from crying.
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